In which I decide.

So yeah, my last post was basically about how I rant for 3 minutes about how I missed Sword.
I decided for my final decision that I will not return to Sword.
I love, appreciate and give major thanks to Sarah however for being so kind and gratuitous as to offering me a spot back by helping me out - but I must decline from your great offer.
I fear many things in life; one being a big burden. I find it irrational for someone to be apart of a burden such as myself so I really don't want to wish that on Sarah, because she doesn't deserve that. Save that offer for someone who deserves it, because I truly do not.

My final decision really revolved around a few things;
Yes I did want to be apart of the Zeia, the Arsene Circus, Claire and the new awesome updates - but these things all come with a hefty price; and that is cash. I'm getting tired of blowing my money on Sword and other games - mainly because I've never benefited from doing so, not once at all. Plus I have law school to save up for, undergradute degree to pay for, my own apartment, utility bills and everything for my future. :/ Spending money impulsively is the last thing I choose not to do.
I've also ran out of time in a day to do all the things that need to be done; I can't simply keep up with my schedule. I have to study for SATs again, do my AP assignments, work on my mom's new website for her new business, get a job, and then now I have to go and talk to my school principle about how my idea to create a student tribunal should be executed in the beginning of the school year, though I get to be the head of it if executed well. (:! So yeah, life is...painful to say the least. But I cannot keep up with Sword and my life.

xoxo,
Valentine.