Thursday, April 30, 2009

In which I explain.

This week has been a hectic one, and the job search hasn't been going the way I expected.
Zero. Nada. Zip. Zulch. No. None. Nein. callbacks from the five positions I applied to for a job. I think it's because they want someone older, and you would think, that my birthday, which is one week from yesterday (Wednesday), would be enough for me to land the job. Plus it'd be an awesome birthday gift no? Yes, I'd like to think so.

As the week grew more hectic, my life has gone awry. I used to be prepared for each class before Spring Break, I would understand everything, I memorized everything, and could solve a problem when placed under my wing. Now, I've just lost sight of that ability after returning from Spring Break. It concerns me, because I always play Jeopardy for Social Studies before a test, and I ALWAYS win. And I will not step down my title as the Queen of Jeopardy in all things Global History to someone lesser. I will not have it!

Bird of Paradise

The Bird of Paradise:
This plant is my favorite flower of all time. It represents uniqueness with it's complex structure, and remarkable yet noticeable resemblance to the actual Bird of Paradise. It's meaning is paradise itself, and is amazingly beautiful, as well as a one-of-a-kind in the field of botany. Ranging from $20.00 USD to an astounding $100.00 per flower, it is expensive, but a man who buys me a dozen of these, has won half the battle, that is, the key to my heart.


Sunday, April 26, 2009

In which I indulge.

Lately I've been rather annoyed at a few certain people, perhaps it's because of what they did, or just because I've been relatively cranky from having almost no sleep every single night. But I'm pretty sure it's because of what they did anyways. Stewpid people..

I've also begun to indulge in my childhood fantasies again, with the urge of wanting to play Pokemon and the things I grew up with, but never got to try. I think my childhood as an asian kid is flawed. 93% of Asians I know grew up playing with Final Fantasy and the likes of that..but I haven't..which I think is kinda sad. But however, atleast I've played Pokemon, and I lurve pokemanz<3.

Even though my game life should be on a complete halt, I decided to try GunZ : The Duel again last night, and I waas pretty much kicking major ass. o.o. It's fun to shotgun spray<3.

And as for the week of school, boring ~ but my crew did manage to finally learn the dance step to Boa Kwon's I Did it For Love, which is stuck in my head, and that dance routine is the hardest shit I've ever done in my life.


Sunday, April 19, 2009

In which I rant.

First of all, thank you to everyone for your wishes on my endeavors.
And I wish you all the same<3.

As for American Idol, I don't think that's going to happen, I'd do it, but I can't handle that type of stress. It's too killer for me.

Second of all, I forgot to mention that I was going to log off MSN as well, but I guess I can't anymore, so. I guess I've just quit my gaming life for now.

So this week has been rather hectic.
I went to see The Hannah Montana Movie on Thursday(yes. srsly.) It was actually pretty entertaining, but my friends and I went just to be the cynical bitches and bastards we are.
We said that for about every person who popped up on screen. Tyra Banks, Billy Ray Cyrus, Vivica Fox, Hot cowboy that Miley Cyrus falls in love with, Miley Cyrus's best friend, Miley Cyrus's grandma.
And above all we just screamed "She dies!"
So there was this scene during the movie, called the Hoedown Throwdown, and after hearing it the first time, I got up from my seat and started dancing to the actual song.
Which goes something like this:
"Pop it, lock it, polka dot it, countrify it, hip hop it, put your hawk in the sky, move side to side, stick it and glide." And continues to a second verse which I don't remember.
Anyways, a guy walks up to me and says "Hey you're pretty good at this", he gave his business card and said he had a recording studio and wanted my friends and I to record a demo.
I'm declining on this as well, mainly because, well, the dude could be a scammer. And if he isn't, singing and dancing is a hobby, not my passion.

Men are stewpid.
I am so not going to get another crush and into another relationship till I'm liek. 28.
Stewpid men are stewpid.


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

In which I say my final goodbye.

Tomorrow ends an era of online-life. For the past four years, I've dedicated myself to a numerous video games online and offline, making new friends, new enemies, facing tough challenges, drama, and above all, learning new experiences. But tomorrow, is my end for it all. I officially resign from Sword of the New World tomorrow, leaving my account in preservation. Hopefully, any of the Onslaught members who might happen to come by my blog, will see me off. Though it has been short-lived, it was a pleasure to be under Senji's command for a week.

In the past four years, no experience has mattered the most to me except Sword of the New World and Rakion. I've met such great people, and challenging enemies, some overwhelmingly challenging, and others who could not compare. But this chapter of my life will begin to close, as I seek to prevail and reach for my future dreams.

Rakion - To those who ever mattered to me:

I apologize for not being a better person. I apologize for being vindictive, and above all, a crazy bitch. But I did not sign on to a game, to pretend like I'm someone else. I am me, and it was a pleasure meeting many of you. Though most of you will probably never see this blog. I want you to know, and you know who you are, many of you are the greatest people I've ever met. With the new players and cash whores coming into the game, you veterans who quit early make me proud. You make me feel that there are good people out there, and I wish you the best.

Sword of the New World - To those who've I've hurt and those whom I love:

I also apologize for not being a better person. And especially to Miseriicordia. Though I was vindictive in what I said, I did not sign on to be a happy-go-lucky person. The truth is what you needed to see, regardless if you were oblivious to it. You were a great leader, but the greed of Colonies took you over. To those who I loved, you guys were the best. It was a privilege and an honor to have raided with you, talked to you, and above all, befriended you. I wish you success in the future, and the present.

And finally, my last words.

Everyone who I've ever met in my life has been a person. Though, their personality does define them, their success and determination will always be the factor that is to be remembered. Don't ever let someone tell you to stand down, because you are to stand up, and fight to the finish. Don't let another person tell you otherwise, and strive to prove them wrong. And finally, to quote the anonymous beholder of this great quote for the very last time:

"Run if you can, walk if you must, crawl if you have to; but never give up."

This applies to everything you do in life. Because giving up will never solve a problem.

But I for one, have given up. I'm tired of spending everyday grinding insatiably to level, I'm tired of waiting for that guy right there to talk to me again. I'm tired of dealing with other people's needs and putting mine before theirs. I've done much for everyone else, and I finally and strongly believe, it is time for me to do for myself.

There will be people who might never see this post. And might want to say good-bye, but will never have the chance to. But I receive them knowingly from those who I know whom have something to say.

It has been a pleasure.
Until next time. May we all meet again.
It is the last. It is the end, and it is immediate.
All good things, no matter how great they have been or ever will be, must come to an end.
And I bid to you all my final adieu.

P.S. I leave this video to inspire you all, that you can do it. And to never be afraid. Be a good person, and good will come to you. The world is full of cynicism, negativity, and a shred of hope. But don't ever ever ever let it get you down.

In which I contemplate.

I've been so bored lately, that I've stopped going on Sword this week. I haven't even touched it at all this entire week. :/.
Well, this entire week I've been thinking a lot about everything. Mainly what I'll be doing with my future, and I was seriously contemplating on a decision that I want to make and hopefully make the right choice. I've been thinking about whether or not I should audition for American Idol next year. No joke. The thing is, I've replayed what could happen in my head quite the number of times, and I know exactly what songs I would sing up until they tell the contestants what songs they're to sing. But I highly doubt I can handle the constant suspense and stress from the show. Did I make it for the next round, did I do well, are people going to vote for me. Things like that. Plus if I did win up to the final night with the runner-up, and have to wait until Ryan Seacrest announces the winner oh-so-slowly as he always does, I will probably drive and dig my nails into his throat because he didn't quickly say it. That as well as me grabbing Simon Cowell off the judge's table and smacking his fayce against the wall like a beast.
Much more thinking about this to be done. It looks like a fun experience, but might be too challenging for myself at the moment.


Songs that I could totally nail on American Idol:
I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Loving You - Minnie Riperton
And I'm Telling You, I'm Not Going - Jennifer Hudson
Manhattan From The Sky - Kate Voegle (Yes I'd totally sing this)
....and a whole bunch of Korean/Disney/other songs if I were allowed to use them. :[

Sunday, April 12, 2009

In which I work.

It's been a heavy week.
I did return to Sword, but I have to take a small break from it again sadly. I was looking forward to hitting 80% by the end of spring break. I guess the time is not now for me to grind.
So while returning to Sword, a friend of mine offered me a job somewhere, which I will not say exactly where because I find it a teensy bit embarrassing. But it does go somewhere along the lines of:

"Welcome to King Burger, where you can have it your way.....but don't get crazy."

I have to go in for the interview, and hopefully I get the job. I seriously need the work experience before hitting up colleges for an acceptance.
Speaking of college, I also got a letter from "Who's Who, The Registry of Academic Excellence" saying that I was nominated to have my biography published in a book. 'Free of charge.' If anyone knows more about this program or whatever you wanna call it, please please tell me about it, because now that I know I've been nominated by someone, I really need to get accepted.

All for now.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

In which I reminisce.

This post is probably going to be a very boring one for some people.

First and foremost, I returned to Sword of the New World. And it's been going to pretty good I would say. Sarah and )|(onslaught)|( has welcomed me with open arms. I sold off my Vet Irawain and Fighter, but I still need to level my wizard to 4%, I already have someone lined up to buy her.
The thing is, I traded Vet Irawain for a +5/2DR ERM, when he was willing to offer 65m. I don't know if I really made such a terrible deal, but I needed the ERM.

Second, I've been rather off this week. I guess because all the emotions I've been feeling have finally taken a toll. The truth is, I'm actually pretty unhappy nowadays. A long time ago, I dated this guy. This was a long while back, and the truth is I don't think I'm over him yet. It's been a very long while, and the last time we talked, it was relatively hostile, and didn't end very well. But that was after we broke up. His name will remain nameless, I just wonder if he knows who he is, and if he has any courage to say anything to me. He dated a friend of mine, and they were relatively happy, but somewhere during that time, something changed the both of them. It's been a long time since all that, and as strong and courageous as I may be, I have no idea what to say to him.

Life is full of conundrums, and my heart is stricken with one.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

In which I smile.

I went on Sword last night for the second time since I quit. I sold all my fighter's crap, and I think I got ripped off by a couple million vis. What the heck is with the economy? Everything soared in prices since I quit. 9m for a 100 enchant chip?! Plus, a +3AR, +6, +92% Human pistol for 1bil. And a crap modded 92e pole for 80m. Jesus christ. I sold all my stuff for an accumulated 103m total. I still have to sell the blunt, maybe I'll get some more money out of that, and my vet wiz and fighter. I bought a Bracelet of Great Soul for 60m (fear of higher inflation makes me sad). But I must start accumulating monars to get a skullic bracer. 60m for a MSP. Bullshit.

Anyways, I need a clan, but hah. Check out this awesome proverb.

"I dream of a better tomorrow, where a chicken can cross a road and not have their motive questioned."


P.S. Price check on my Vet Grace, +5 70% Undead Conq. SG and yeah. :]

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

In which I scream.

Some of the dumbest things in the world happen everyday. Some of which makes you wonder if the world is safe at all. Today, a man the age of 25-years old died from playing Wii Fit, shortly after talking to his mama.
Apparently he suffered from "Sudden Adult Death Syndrome" which is when you have a heart attack for no apparent reason at all even if you are healthy and fit. You would think cardiac arrhythmia would be for old people or people who eat pork brain with 3.5K mg of Cholesterol.
The game is not to blame, but however, what the hell. If you die from being healthy and you suffer from being obese/overweight, then I would rather suffer from obesity than diehealthy.
The world makes no sense anymore.
Watch the people who died, die again.