Saturday, September 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I can't fucking believe this!
Marvel is being bought out by Disney Corp. for $4 Billion?!
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!
X-Men is totally worth like, $30 Billion! D:<
This is an end of an era, it's totally going to suck now cause all of the awesome shit is going to be censored....
Can you imagine Wolverine hugging people instead of slashing them?!
Or Storm using lightning to fight, but instead pouring love and hearts from the sky?
OR MILEY CYRUS BECOMING A SUPERHERO.
THIS IS BULLSHIT.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Recently, I wrote on this blog that I planned on not appearing on America's Got Talent and American Idol. I've decided to stick with that decision. But however, I recently made a new decision.
I've decided to take up Korean and Mandarin language classes throughout the course of my senior year in high school for six months, hoping to master it by then.
At the end of this 6 month learning period, assuming I master Korean first - I will be heading to SM Entertainment USA's Headquarters in Los Angeles, California (the same company which is contracted with BoA and other celebrities like SNSD and Super Junior) and audition to be a singer/dancer. But. This year, I have to work especially hard so that I may suceed in speaking Korean, dancing and singing while maintaining my school activities and grades.
I checked out some of the audition clips from SM Entertainment USA and I thought that many of them were pretty bad..
One guy who was an actor..I thought he was just ranting at the camera..turns out he was talking about how a company was treating him bad and how he should kill them right now.
I was lol'ing at how awful it was >>;;.
But yeah, I wanted to share this exciting update of news to everybody.
Maybe in a few years I'll burst out of the music industry, hopefully in Korea first.
I'm still waiting for Miley Cyrus to do a vulgar picture with someone and everyone boos her. Something to the extent of Vannessa Hudgen's thing.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I'm in England at the moment, and will be returning back to the US in two days. D:.
I still have done almost absolutely nothing here in England. I've stilll been trying to look for locations that would interest me. I like looking at art and history, I find it fun. :3.
My adventures in Europe are soon to be concluded and I had a decent amount of fun here and there.
Rome's Trevi Fountain and Piazza Navona were beautiful.
But I can barely recall other places I went to because of my pigging out on food and watching X-Men Evolution on my laptop. Yes I know, I was in the Eternal City watching shows in my hotel room. I'm so cool.
But in other news, when I'm coming back I have a lot of work to do. ESPECIALLY get my group together and learn this dance routine and song.
So sexy and addicting.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
I didn't mean to make you guys jealous! I'd take you guys with if I could. :[.
And Al, as for Germany and Rome, even though I know both places are great I think it's because Germany was the site of living hell and I don't know if I could bring myself to walk the earth that once had people harvested for death. I don't forgive Germany for what they did in World War II, in fact I really don't accept any formal apology from them for it because I think they still believe it was the right thing to do. None of them betrayed Hitler to save people so I can't see why I would visit that country anymore.
So yes, my travels continue here in France. I've actually had really rich food and I'm really woozy from it all. I had some really great cuisine though, the cassoulet being my favorite. I couldn't bring myself to try Escargot..soooo yeah..I really hoped that my life wasn't a movie scene, but it became one. I was sitting in a cafe in the morning drinking coffee and reading a book for my AP Summer Assignment when this asian guy (What the fuck another Asian in France? Whuuuuuuut?) He sits down without asking if the seat was taken and says Hi there (in English). Now I've been practicing ONE french phrase the ENTIRE time I've been here which is "Je ne parle pas l'anglais. " <- I don't speak English. And I think this was my stupid defining moment because he then speaks perfect french to me. And I was like. Damnit. So I picked up my book and just left. >_>;;
Yeah, pitiful is me.
And I just realized how people are SOOOOOOO self-centered. Was Roleplaying on Warcraft waiting for my day to begin and my god, this girl on the game starts describing her fantasy character. Jesus christ and when people were TRYING TO GO ALONG WITH THE ROLEPLAY she starts bitching about how they weren't listening. My god,she described her character as an elf (DRY MATERIAL MOVE ALONG) and how she's curvy and everything. The slut is probrably a huge mcfatty in real life.
Friday, July 31, 2009
So I see that Sarah has gotten a new expert Elementalist, congratulations m'dear!
Anyways, I'm actually in Paris, France at the moment, literally right now. It's like 8:00AM here but I'm running on EST. I woke up an hour or so go. I'm staying at the Hotel du Levant, it's nice here and the breakfast is awesome. Eggs Benedict. (First try)~<3 Amazement. I'm here alone, no parents, no friends. I kinda want the experience of traveling alone. I got here last night around 11:30, I was dead tired so I slept until about 7 and woke up. Just looked at the internet finding places to go to and stuff. I definitely am going to the Eiffel Tower, and a few museums if I can find a few. This is actually the first country on my tour to visit 4 others. Originally I was going to visit France, Italy, Germany and Britain but I'm exchanging Germany out with Rome instead. (:. I know for sure Im going to the Normandy site of where D-Day occured in WW2. Well, my day doesn't start for another 2 hours. So I'm going to sit and play some Warcraft with some free Interwebs son. Playing in the Europe server, lul. x]. So I'm probably going to visit the Palace of Versaille tommorow and we'll see what happens then. I really don't think my trip here is going to turn into a movie scene where I meet a cute guy and he takes me out and I get to experience France or any of the other countries through his eyes. That'd be fun though.
Anyways, time to be bored for a little, and finish my tea.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I decided for my final decision that I will not return to Sword.
I love, appreciate and give major thanks to Sarah however for being so kind and gratuitous as to offering me a spot back by helping me out - but I must decline from your great offer.
I fear many things in life; one being a big burden. I find it irrational for someone to be apart of a burden such as myself so I really don't want to wish that on Sarah, because she doesn't deserve that. Save that offer for someone who deserves it, because I truly do not.
My final decision really revolved around a few things;
Yes I did want to be apart of the Zeia, the Arsene Circus, Claire and the new awesome updates - but these things all come with a hefty price; and that is cash. I'm getting tired of blowing my money on Sword and other games - mainly because I've never benefited from doing so, not once at all. Plus I have law school to save up for, undergradute degree to pay for, my own apartment, utility bills and everything for my future. :/ Spending money impulsively is the last thing I choose not to do.
I've also ran out of time in a day to do all the things that need to be done; I can't simply keep up with my schedule. I have to study for SATs again, do my AP assignments, work on my mom's new website for her new business, get a job, and then now I have to go and talk to my school principle about how my idea to create a student tribunal should be executed in the beginning of the school year, though I get to be the head of it if executed well. (:! So yeah, life is...painful to say the least. But I cannot keep up with Sword and my life.
Friday, July 17, 2009
It really really really pisses me off that I did give away my account therefore I have nothing to start with. -.-.
It really upsets me too cause I really wanted to be apart of 3.4 and Arsene Circus -.-;
and that's coming soon too to Sword now I really hate myself.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
The month of July is here; Happy Independence Day! We celebrate the day the signing of the Declaration of Independence - granting United States it's freedom and total succession from the British Empire! I've always wondered what'd it'd be like if we didn't succeed during the American Revolution. Pip-pip cheerio anyone?
So, I hope everyone has a great Independence Day off celebrating with their family and being patriotic and watching them fireworks fly up and explode.
Life has been pretty good so far - except today. Had to punch a guy in the nose and break it because he was being a rude jerk. I was at Duane Reade (a pharmacy chain in NY) - and I was looking for cooking twine all over the store, went up and down the aisles until I got to where all the medicine was. This guy comes up to me and says "Looking for Gonorrhea medicine?" and I'm like, "What was that?" - He replies with "You heard me, looking for gonorrhea medicine?" I punched him in the face. Now it hurts a bit, but I'll be fine.
And I was reading Ashardalon's blog about Sword..and I like threw up in my mouth a little bit when he mentioned the new patches, and how 2.9 - 3.4 are coming out very shortly - Fuck you hard K2, fuck you hard. Ashardalon is so dedicated for finding all these informative little pieces for people - so determined, I'm sorry that I didn't get to know you a bit better during my stay on both Sword and in Telos :/. I'm sure it would've been a wonderous experience.
So besides all this stuff; I had to cook dinner for 3 days straight. Here they is. D:. Don't laugh at my plates and dirty kitchen. >_>;
(Beef Steak Roulade with Pesto Linguine~)
(My most favorite one of all; Roasted Cornish Hen with Roasted Veggies. :) Be jealous! ) :D
So yeah, it's been a pretty exciting week, I also happened to go to the NYC Gay Pride Festival a few days ago - and it was fucking awesome. Some of the most coolest people I've ever met were there; some had really bad entertainment but some upcoming celebrities like Farrad and Les Romanesques ; TOTALLY AWESOME.
Here's their videos.
This is Farrad; he's awesome<3. Boys; the blonde girl - keep an eye out for her; she's freakin' hot.
This is Les Romanesques - the video from Pridefest isn't up - I guess no one took a decent one, but this made me laugh so hard cause they performed this song; and it was SO FREAKIN' AWESOME - you have no idea.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
But; my grades still remain, my bitch of an english teacher gave my project which is a final a 75. Partially my fault since I didn't meet the "two-page" requirement; but honestly can ANYONE write a two page poem about a subject without repitition of previous statements? God; she gave people 40s, 50s and 60s. A friend of mine even saw a 10. I hate her. I hope she burns in the fiery depths of hell that annoying bitch. (She's not married at all and she's liek middle aged and fugly.) She needs to get laid.
So yeah, the school years over but I still have regents to take. :/. Well, better hit the sack, gotta wake up in 6 hours.
Nighty night - and sweet dreams.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The end of my junior year in high school ends in officially one and 1/2 days. I then move on to become a senior, preparing to be a freshman all over again in college, rebuilding my reputation, claiming who I am in this world once again. Even without this movement to a new year, I still cry regardless - one of my most dearest friends has disappeared from MSN, and I haven't seen him for two months. At first, he was missing for a week - I thought the same thing as I did before, he's probably busy, but I do see him in bits and pieces of time. This time he's been gone a whole week, and I haven't seen or heard from him. I'm scared for where he might be. What might have happened to him. He was my best of best friends, and I doubt I'd be able to continue life enjoyably without him. His disappearance has put a damper on my spirit. That and listening to Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne doesn't help either.
Everytime I listen to Keep Holding On, it renews my passion, makes me laugh, makes me cry, makes me smile. I get goosebumps listening to the lyrics - as if they demean me from helping. It makes me seem useless in a world full of need. It's weird how everyone who does well academically has some astounding passion to save mankind - it raises the question; do we do it because we want fame, do we do it because we want to, or do we do it because it is our destiny to do so.
My passion for wanting to help people was never about fame. I don't care for glory, I don't care for fame or riches. I believe I get more out of helping people, that feeling and sense of accomplishment and self-pride for doing so. That in itself has no price tag; it is not purchasble, it is to be gained. The only reason why I planned to go on American Idol or AGT was not because of fame, but because if I succeeded I would be able to raise so much money to help people than I would as a nobody. But I now made the complete decision not to audition for any of it all. I fear the success - I can't handle the job stress of paparazzi swarming me. I don't want to be pitied for the mistakes I make in the business - judged by millions of people who think they know me because they read fan sites about my life, but at the same time, if I had become successful; by me making this decision, am I robbing those in need of a better life. Am I that selfish to do so.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I gave in my major project for ROTC - got a 100 x 3 <3. So awesome possum. :3 Video-editting skills are win~.
I got a 100 on my Constitutional Law essay/test thing. Which apparently is the "best essay" my Con law teacher has read in a few years..she was all "LIKE, OMG. THIS WAS SO GOOD. OH LORD."
I got creepers when she said that. I sorta also set a new standard against internet pornography and it's distribution to minors. (I'm going to be so hated for this). A girl who's part of my group (we're Congress) asked me to fill her in, so I told her my idea, which is making people validate their SSN on a pornographic website before they can proceed because you can't go around stealing SSN's from your mom or dad, and it forces you to know your SSN. So she was like" Wait, why SSN? What about the immigrants, they don't have SSNs, how are they going to watch porn?!" I jokingly said, that why are they on the computer? They should be working. But if she brings up that point again Im just gonna say, more of a reason to have it since it'll stop immigrants from coming in. Land of Opportunity - Easy porn usage = Stay back to wherever the hell you came from because you can get porn easily there.
I've got some good feelings about my finals, hopefully they agree with me. The year is coming to an end, and I still have so much on my plate. I'm just as happy as can be right now.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Anyways, D'ar, you do realize teachers get a tax-deduction because they're civil servants right? :3. Pastry Chefs may make almost the same amount of money as teachers, they do not receive any deductions on their taxes. Plus, even though you don't deal with snotty kids, you do realize you'll have to work in a fast-paced environment with a head chef yelling orders at you. (Kinda like Gordon Ramsey, only he doesn't call you a fucking idiot every 3 1/2 seconds because it won't be the only words in his vocabulary.)
I've lately gotten very very agitated. Mainly cause I'm stressed about my grades, and these two big finals I have that are due soon. Both my teachers for these finals made it so that the finals isn't a test, but a project. My constitutional law project is writing legislation for pornography laws. Keep in mind, my con law teacher is like, 75 years old stuck in a permanent pelvic thrust position. The class is mad fun, but it's just creepy when you have a 75 year old lady teaching you con law who also happens to be a sex freak.
Speaking of sex freak, there's been a rumor going around my school of a 16-year-old sophmore taking pictures of herself nude and sending it to a guy she liked, who didn't like her and sent the picture to everyone in his phonebook. The girl produced child pornography, apparently in blue panties, but revealed everything else. I personally haven't seen the pictures, but from other people's accounts, they say she's ugly as hell, flat and saggy boobs, with a big nose, and pimples on both her boobs and face. After hearing these accounts - I don't think I want to see this picture at all. But I hope she goes to jail and so does the guy who sent these pictures. She's so desperate to have sex, it's pitiful. I feel no remorse for her, she committed the dumbest mistake one can make, and since her body is being ridiculed and scrutinized, it is no one's fault but her own.
Anyways, I should be going to sleep soon, because I have to do a project tommorow with 3 people who are lazy as hell. One girl in my group is a complete idiot. Like, the biggest idiot I've ever met in my life, and I've met some PRETTTTYY big idiots. She's got the most dumbest idea's I've ever heard, it's a good thing she's not working directly under Obama and the Economics chapter, because our country would be in deeper shit. "I bought a bag of 15 candies, and a bag of 200 candies!" - - why the fuck would you buy a bag of 15 and then a bag of 200. We only needed 80. "Let's hire a clown! But make sure I'm not there, because Im afraid of clowns" -- WHY EVEN SUGGEST THAT THEN. And my favorite one : "My mom thinks the subways are dangerous, can't we take a car service?" - - Subway fares : $2.00 USD + free 2hr. transfer. Car service from Queens to Manhattan: Approxiamately 351.46$USD. Her mother also thinks that Upper East manhattan is dangerous. Upper East Manhattan is where all the RICH WHITE KIDS live, what the fuck is so dangerous about that? It's also where Gucci, Prada, Armani Exchange, Louis Vuitton, F.A.O. Schwartz are around, what's the danger in that? Afraid of them shoving LV bags in your face telling you to buy them?
Lastly, I really hate some people on MSN. Like this one guy, who messages me, says Hi, and some random shit (Today it was about how his nose was runny - I tell him to take some medicine then) and then he says he just did. And then he's like, well I'm out, I need my sleep, good night.
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MESSAGE, WASTE 5 MINUTES OF MY LIFE TO TELL ME USELESS SHIT AND THEN TELL ME YOU NEED SLEEP. I'm not your fucking sleep aid, don't message me telling me shit about your life when you need sleep. Jesus Christ, next time I'm just gonna cut people off - If your convo does not past a 15 minute mark, do not continue beyond this point.
-Dealing with stupids all week, allllllll week.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I've gotten lazy on my schoolwork, and it's the end of the year. This last term is the most important, because it is the grade that goes on my transcript. My test scores haven't been excellent, so there is no doubt in my mind that my grades are going to plummet. I'm scared, of course, because I've had another alteration to the career I wish to pursue in the future.
I originally wanted to be a forensic scientist (like CSI, but I'm so much cooler) but then I was reading this article on Yahoo!, and it said that the top 10 most pursued careers at the moment included both Forensic Scientists and Pastry Chefs. Forensic scientists make an annual averaged salary of 61,000$/year and Pastry Chefs make 41,000$/year (This is for those who aren't top award winning chefs cooking in 5-star places).
I asked my mother, if she would permit and support me in the career change to a pastry chef. Because I can bake some mean stuff. She told me that she'd support me regardless, but it's my father I need to get through. She told me that being a forensic scientist will let you help people, and provide families with the closure they seek. She says that she won't mind if I was a pastry chef part time to learn a new skill, because skills are good for anyone. She then told me some story about this world-famous top forensic scientist -- Dr. Lee, I still haven't looked him up, but apparently he's very wanted for his ability to solve cases 99.9% of the time, even if the crime was committed many many years ago. Finally, she told me to use my brain rather than my hands for a career. So in the end, it leaves me with one questions -- Don't all careers require us to use our brain AND our hands? We all need both of them, not in equal ratios, but we still use them.
A lawyer uses his brain to come up with questions on the spot, perceive the information that comes to them, bend the testimony of witnesses to their will (lul, lawyers would make good new Avatars for testimony bending). A lawyer uses his hands to write, and carry all the documents they need to support their arguements in court.
A forensic scientist uses his brain to study and examine the evidence that comes to them. Figuring out compounds of certain things, think of ways to discover new evidence, putting pieces of a puzzle together in order to get the full picture. A forensic scientist uses his hands to collect evidence extensively, carries evidence back and forth, uses lab equipment, and must be careful with all reagants in the lab as well as the lab itself.
A pastry chef uses his brain to concoct new and creative recipes, measure the ingredients in their mind, come up with ways to perfect a recipe, ways to alterate it without destroying it, creating harmony and melody between flavors. A pastry chef uses his hands to construct their recipes, build a towering cake, a bombastic cupcake full of flavor.
In the end, I am still at a crossroads to choose my career. But whatever I choose to do, I will do it with my passion for it.
Back to normal life, if I were to go on AGT, which I might, still thinking, I'm gonna totally do Jai Ho by PCD, but I don't understand why Nicole Scherzwinger sings it JAY-HO, when it's obvious that it's JAI-HO. I really wish Nicole would stop hogging all the limelight, because they really need to change their name from the Pussycat Dolls to "Nicole and the girls who dance behind her because Nicole hogs all the singing, and we don't even get to sing backup"
But Nicole looks mad indian, she could totally pass as an indian girl.
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009
First, my friends and I went to Wild Safari to look at them animals. It was kinda funny, and amazes me how the animals aren't afraid of the cars. Some of them even walk out in the middle of the road when there are cars. Two ostriches walked by the middle of the road, and a train of little ducklings and their parents. It was so cute. There was this one car that was stuck in the left lane of the road because this ostrich was towering over it. Like literally standing 2 inches from the driver's side. I felt bad for them cause the ostrich pecked at their window a little. It didn't move for a good 20 minutes, so those poor people were stuck there. I liked Wild Safari, amazes me how much land Six Flags owns.
Second, we went to the actual theme park Six Flags, and that was the disappointing part of the trip. Kingda Ka wasn't open, so no crazy roller coaster for me to ride on..sadly. I did however got to go on Twister, the Sky Ride and Go Karts. Go Karts were freakin' awesome, I never realized what a reckless driver I can be. I wasn't bad, but I just sped like hell, even after they said "no drifting" I drifted like hell. There was this pink car with some girl in it, and I really wanted to pass her before the 6 laps were up, but nooo, the bitch kept moving left and right on straight paths, and sticking to the side on the curves. Bitch. But I got past her and did the same shit to her.
But this wasn't the disappointing part of the trip. The disapointing parts were the limitless numbers of nagging whiners. I mean, not to be racist, but while I was there I only saw a trend of naggers -- they were all black people. I mean, this isn't a joke, but that's what happened. Not once in the 4 hours I was there, did I hear someone from another ethnicity whine about something.
For instance, while I was standing in line @ Guest Relations to ask something, there was a pretty long line, but also these two people who were talking to the employees for a good 10 minutes. I don't mind waiting, because they're probably going through some reservation issues, and that can take a while, hell if it were me, I'd expect the same patience. But no, this black girl with this heavy jamaican accent comes along and says "this is boolshit, waiting in line." Then don't wait in line. She talks to her guy friend, and I was eaves dropping, listening to her whine about the long line, the long wait, and mocking this girl who was one of the people talking to the employees. Her friend then tells her that she owes him 50$ because of the money he spent on her today. Her reply: "it's my birthday, I owe you nothing." I turned around, and knocked that bitch out. That's the dumbest fucking excuse ever. Tell that to the IRS, or Immigration, or perhaps use it to get out of paying the medical bills that will cover the treatment on the black eye I just gave you.
Another instance, I was waiting in line to play this game, where you throw a ball at this board, and it has to go into the bucket in order for you to win this big ass life sized stuffed animal. This black woman won, and asked for the BamBam doll (I think it's BamBam, the little baby girl from The Flintstones) anyways, she takes her prize, looks at it, and sees a tear. Now keep in mind, these shits have huge ass heads, of course the neck tears. She brings it back to the kiosk to ask for something else. The employee is suffering by dragging this doll to this pen in the middle and tries to get her something else. He does this twice. And then she just asks for the BamBam doll back. I should've knocked her out too.
Finally, when I wanted to go to the paintball kiosk, there were these three black people. Now this wasnt naggy, but it was just so fucking annoying. They were just spending money shooting at STATIONARY targets, and was all "HEADSHOT" of course you'll get a headshot, it was STATIONARY. If you can't get a headshot, you might as well give yourself a headshot. It was retarded because they seriously thought it was counter-strike.
Ugh, horrible day. And Im not a racist! This is what happened today, and it's bad enough that I need to say it.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
It's 4:21PM right now, and I need to wait another six hours before my dad picks me up so we can go on our family vacation. Sadly it's one day.. Im not allowed to prolong it to Tuesday cause I have a chemistry test. Damn you ms. Triola (chem teacher) she's awesome though, so no worries I guess.
Lately I think everyone's been down, and pretty depressed. I press my little MSN icon on my toolbar, and out pops the list of people, with depressing statuses or display names. I find it kinda funny how people come to me for advice, and decide not to talk to me after I do, so then they're left at a crossroads about whether or not they should ask me for more advice, but shouldn't because they decide not to IM you for about two months. Pitiful really. I could care less, it's not my life, it's yours.
My life is at a crossroads too however. I still haven't chosen a major for college yet. I keep asking myself is this what I really want to do. Forensic scientist -- it's great, but way too much paperwork.
Psychotherapy -- Dealing with insanity -- no thanks, Im pretty insane myself.
Sociologoy -- I'll end up building a nuke that kills people who are stoopid, cause I think their actions are the most retarded things in the world. Like my friend who payed 86$ for the AP Global test and decides not to write the 3 required essays that account for 50% of the grade. Good job, why don't you just NOT take AP if you can't handle writing the fucking essay. Good job wasting your mom's money.
Decisions like these make me think whether or not I'll die from stress before the age of 25. It's not so surprsing, Im not suicidal or anything, but these career choices will eventually end up leading you to death anyways, wouldn't it be easier if you just jumped now, instead of going with it.
The Confused Valentine.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
How does this relate to me right now after quitting for so long?
While walking to Chemistry one day, I saw a freshman with two other freshmen, and he said, and I quote "you're useless, kill yourself, you worthless pathetic piece of shit." After hearing that, I froze. I asked myself, could it be? Could it be in fact those pathetic bastards that we met in-game? I turned to find this kid, I'm 5'6, the kid was 5'0. He was very short. But I walked up to this kid, picked him up and slammed him into the wall. I was pissed. I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. And got up in his face. I told him if he ever had the tenacity to EVER say that to someone again, I will be there, and it would hurt after saying something like that. I could have done a lot worse to him. But I just dropped him and let him go. The dean asked me what I did. And I admitted it, after telling the dean what the kid had the audacity to say. They were more concerned with what he had said than what I had done. But regardless, I still wonder if his parents and he could in fact be Dragonmount or Jenkins. If it is, oh so help me, I will find him, an d destroy them for them defamating Telos, and slandering Mis's name.
On a happier note, thank you Kumi for posting that blog post about Charice Pempengco, I was going to watch that episode, but I forgot all about it. D:. But thanks for posting that youtube link, I showed it to my boyfriend, and he got a download of the song for me. :]. I can't stop listening to it, her voice is so beautiful. I wish I had her voice, since Im no where as good. I started trying to sing the song, since it is so calming and beautiful. I took the song lyrics to heart, even if I'm athiest. The song is beautiful.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Yes, that's totally why I love her, she's a lesbian, and totally rocks hardcore. I miss you guys! I wish we were still playing Sword together, it was a fun time.
Yesterday a best friend of mine for a really long time poured his heart out on me, telling me how he really felt about me. And it's weird because, when he told me how he felt, it took me a while to realize that I felt the same thing. First thing's first, I ain't cheating on anyone, cause I dumped that other boyfriend a while back. And I feel totally stupid, when I spill my heart to him telling him about my crushes, and all that. But the good news is, my ex-crush has also moved on after I finally gave him a taste of reality.
So now life is pretty good. With the exception of my global teacher of course, who should still return his master's degree because he is the suck.
And as for AGT, I might do it, Im not sure, Dar is right that the life of a celebrity can be great, but very flawed. I don't know if I could handle that. :/. But it's good to know Al and Dar support me<3.
Anyways, so, I recently discovered Wanda Sykes, the ever so talented and blunt comedian who played Ruby the Assistant to Viola Fields in Monster-in-Law. I love her stand up comedy, I totally died when I watched her videos. Her standpoint on gay marriage, is the exact same point that I believe in. Check it out:
And, I'm still contemplating the decision to become a celebrity. I read that America's Got Talent '09 starts next month, for live auditions. I would prefer that over American Idol, because of Wanda Sykes's point on American Idol. :].
Finally, I've perfected the routine for Eat You Up by Boa Kwon with mah crew. I totally would perform I Did it for Love or Eat You Up for the judges on AGT. Totally win.
^- Stupid SM Entertainment USA disabled Embed on request. Fuckers. :[ Watch on High quality.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
First off, people who I don't necessarily hate, but very much dislike constantly return to my life. It gets annoying after a while constantly needing to deal with this people. I just kinda wish they turned to dust, get hit by a truck or just die for no apparent reason at all. (Yes, this is how much I dislike them). The same thing applies for my new/current global teacher. He's an idjit. He had to do a department of education requirement to give a lesson on HIV/AIDS. Now, my global class isn't honors this year, because I couldn't get the needed grade to be in honors. So I'm stuck in a regular class, with regular idiots who's thinking of a good teacher is one who curses in class. So, when asked whether or not he gave a crap about this lesson, his reply? "I don't give a shit." I don't care for the HIV/AIDS lesson, but when you say you don't give a shit about HIV or AIDS because you don't have it, that's just purely obnoxious. I was very very very close to getting up, telling him to call his college and refund his Master's Degree because obviously four years of university didnt give you much of an education.
Secondly, my service learning project for ROTC has so far failed. The whole, every kid deserves a smile idea for stuffed animal donations is apparently against a code in the department of health. So much for that. Now I'm out of ideas, and the due date: <3 weeks. Just lovely.
Third, I'm still contemplating a decision to go on American Idol or not. There's major pro/con debates that can keep my decision-making fueled. If I did become sucessful, could I handle the stress as a celebrity? When Britney Spears went beserk, the paparazzi wouldn't leave her alone, no wonder she shaved her hair off. But, she's clean now with the strongest comeback. Would I do the same? Would people ever use me if I became sucessful? Would I just be a tool for 'friends' to hop along on? And then the pros, having a lot of money, having fame (though it can be bad), being a celebrity means I could help people in masses, and I think the most rewarding to me is showing up everyone who ever said they didn't believe in me. Or the same people who stabbed me in the back. It's just a wonderful revenge instead of saying it, I become one with much money and just kick ass and make them regret what they've done.
Fourth, I have an urge to make a new blog under the same account just to write short stories. Fantasy/Fiction short stories are things I totally love to write about. After all, literature substitutes reality for a realm in which we cannot explore as humans.
Bored to death, hating to end and a complicated decison.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I also started playing an old game that an old old old friend of mine played a long time ago, and now we went back to it. The game is Corum Online, and although it's click to move, it's the most fun game I've ever played. Leveling is easy as hell since quests account for 75% of your exp, but grinding is pretty quick as well. Especially when you get a godly guardian like mine<3. All I have to do now is wait for my friend to relevel his priest to 60, and we'll continue our adventures.
As far as real life goes; death is easy, living is the hard part. Life always tends to get difficult as the days past, and the school year ends. Final Examinations begin in two weeks, state regents a week after Finals and Cadet challenge is next week. Time to kick some major ass.
As for love, it's kinda hard getting past an old crush, when someone who looks exactly like your old crush is sitting in your class for the whole year. This person is practically the clone of my past crush, same face, same hair style, and the potential to be great. Except the body, I guess. But none-the-less, pretty similar. It's hard to move on when your past envelops you, and history repeats itself.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Monday, May 4, 2009
I'm still in Daytona Beach watching and writing up stuff for Drill Team Competition Nationals. It's..really boring watching drills for about six hours. And I get to do it all over again tomorrow! I have to wake up in technically 4.5 hours after writing this post and watch drill teams for about 6 hours until 11 to 12. I'm just freakin' ecstatic.
On top of that, I sorta take this as a vacation too, having shopped for about seven hours yesterday after spending six hours watching drill comp. I spent roughly $1,000 on clothes here, 1/3 of which I spent on one item for my boyfriend. A $386.00 graphic suit jacket for him to wear to military ball. If he doesn't wear it I'm going to shoot someone.
I get back home on Tuesday..yay....the day right before my birthday. I'll be havin' jet lag for dinner kthanks.
Wanting to go home now.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Zero. Nada. Zip. Zulch. No. None. Nein. callbacks from the five positions I applied to for a job. I think it's because they want someone older, and you would think, that my birthday, which is one week from yesterday (Wednesday), would be enough for me to land the job. Plus it'd be an awesome birthday gift no? Yes, I'd like to think so.
As the week grew more hectic, my life has gone awry. I used to be prepared for each class before Spring Break, I would understand everything, I memorized everything, and could solve a problem when placed under my wing. Now, I've just lost sight of that ability after returning from Spring Break. It concerns me, because I always play Jeopardy for Social Studies before a test, and I ALWAYS win. And I will not step down my title as the Queen of Jeopardy in all things Global History to someone lesser. I will not have it!
This plant is my favorite flower of all time. It represents uniqueness with it's complex structure, and remarkable yet noticeable resemblance to the actual Bird of Paradise. It's meaning is paradise itself, and is amazingly beautiful, as well as a one-of-a-kind in the field of botany. Ranging from $20.00 USD to an astounding $100.00 per flower, it is expensive, but a man who buys me a dozen of these, has won half the battle, that is, the key to my heart.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I've also begun to indulge in my childhood fantasies again, with the urge of wanting to play Pokemon and the things I grew up with, but never got to try. I think my childhood as an asian kid is flawed. 93% of Asians I know grew up playing with Final Fantasy and the likes of that..but I haven't..which I think is kinda sad. But however, atleast I've played Pokemon, and I lurve pokemanz<3.
Even though my game life should be on a complete halt, I decided to try GunZ : The Duel again last night, and I waas pretty much kicking major ass. o.o. It's fun to shotgun spray<3.
And as for the week of school, boring ~ but my crew did manage to finally learn the dance step to Boa Kwon's I Did it For Love, which is stuck in my head, and that dance routine is the hardest shit I've ever done in my life.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
And I wish you all the same<3.
As for American Idol, I don't think that's going to happen, I'd do it, but I can't handle that type of stress. It's too killer for me.
Second of all, I forgot to mention that I was going to log off MSN as well, but I guess I can't anymore, so. I guess I've just quit my gaming life for now.
So this week has been rather hectic.
I went to see The Hannah Montana Movie on Thursday(yes. srsly.) It was actually pretty entertaining, but my friends and I went just to be the cynical bitches and bastards we are.
"OH MY GAWD IT'S HANNAH MONTANA, SHE'S SUCH AN INSPIRATION!"
We said that for about every person who popped up on screen. Tyra Banks, Billy Ray Cyrus, Vivica Fox, Hot cowboy that Miley Cyrus falls in love with, Miley Cyrus's best friend, Miley Cyrus's grandma.
And above all we just screamed "She dies!"
So there was this scene during the movie, called the Hoedown Throwdown, and after hearing it the first time, I got up from my seat and started dancing to the actual song.
Which goes something like this:
"Pop it, lock it, polka dot it, countrify it, hip hop it, put your hawk in the sky, move side to side, stick it and glide." And continues to a second verse which I don't remember.
Anyways, a guy walks up to me and says "Hey you're pretty good at this", he gave his business card and said he had a recording studio and wanted my friends and I to record a demo.
I'm declining on this as well, mainly because, well, the dude could be a scammer. And if he isn't, singing and dancing is a hobby, not my passion.
Men are stewpid.
I am so not going to get another crush and into another relationship till I'm liek. 28.
Stewpid men are stewpid.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
In the past four years, no experience has mattered the most to me except Sword of the New World and Rakion. I've met such great people, and challenging enemies, some overwhelmingly challenging, and others who could not compare. But this chapter of my life will begin to close, as I seek to prevail and reach for my future dreams.
Rakion - To those who ever mattered to me:
I apologize for not being a better person. I apologize for being vindictive, and above all, a crazy bitch. But I did not sign on to a game, to pretend like I'm someone else. I am me, and it was a pleasure meeting many of you. Though most of you will probably never see this blog. I want you to know, and you know who you are, many of you are the greatest people I've ever met. With the new players and cash whores coming into the game, you veterans who quit early make me proud. You make me feel that there are good people out there, and I wish you the best.
Sword of the New World - To those who've I've hurt and those whom I love:
I also apologize for not being a better person. And especially to Miseriicordia. Though I was vindictive in what I said, I did not sign on to be a happy-go-lucky person. The truth is what you needed to see, regardless if you were oblivious to it. You were a great leader, but the greed of Colonies took you over. To those who I loved, you guys were the best. It was a privilege and an honor to have raided with you, talked to you, and above all, befriended you. I wish you success in the future, and the present.
And finally, my last words.
Everyone who I've ever met in my life has been a person. Though, their personality does define them, their success and determination will always be the factor that is to be remembered. Don't ever let someone tell you to stand down, because you are to stand up, and fight to the finish. Don't let another person tell you otherwise, and strive to prove them wrong. And finally, to quote the anonymous beholder of this great quote for the very last time:
"Run if you can, walk if you must, crawl if you have to; but never give up."
This applies to everything you do in life. Because giving up will never solve a problem.
But I for one, have given up. I'm tired of spending everyday grinding insatiably to level, I'm tired of waiting for that guy right there to talk to me again. I'm tired of dealing with other people's needs and putting mine before theirs. I've done much for everyone else, and I finally and strongly believe, it is time for me to do for myself.
There will be people who might never see this post. And might want to say good-bye, but will never have the chance to. But I receive them knowingly from those who I know whom have something to say.
It has been a pleasure.
Until next time. May we all meet again.
It is the last. It is the end, and it is immediate.
All good things, no matter how great they have been or ever will be, must come to an end.
And I bid to you all my final adieu.
P.S. I leave this video to inspire you all, that you can do it. And to never be afraid. Be a good person, and good will come to you. The world is full of cynicism, negativity, and a shred of hope. But don't ever ever ever let it get you down.
Well, this entire week I've been thinking a lot about everything. Mainly what I'll be doing with my future, and I was seriously contemplating on a decision that I want to make and hopefully make the right choice. I've been thinking about whether or not I should audition for American Idol next year. No joke. The thing is, I've replayed what could happen in my head quite the number of times, and I know exactly what songs I would sing up until they tell the contestants what songs they're to sing. But I highly doubt I can handle the constant suspense and stress from the show. Did I make it for the next round, did I do well, are people going to vote for me. Things like that. Plus if I did win up to the final night with the runner-up, and have to wait until Ryan Seacrest announces the winner oh-so-slowly as he always does, I will probably drive and dig my nails into his throat because he didn't quickly say it. That as well as me grabbing Simon Cowell off the judge's table and smacking his fayce against the wall like a beast.
Much more thinking about this to be done. It looks like a fun experience, but might be too challenging for myself at the moment.
Songs that I could totally nail on American Idol:
I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Loving You - Minnie Riperton
And I'm Telling You, I'm Not Going - Jennifer Hudson
Manhattan From The Sky - Kate Voegle (Yes I'd totally sing this)
....and a whole bunch of Korean/Disney/other songs if I were allowed to use them. :[
Sunday, April 12, 2009
I did return to Sword, but I have to take a small break from it again sadly. I was looking forward to hitting 80% by the end of spring break. I guess the time is not now for me to grind.
So while returning to Sword, a friend of mine offered me a job somewhere, which I will not say exactly where because I find it a teensy bit embarrassing. But it does go somewhere along the lines of:
"Welcome to King Burger, where you can have it your way.....but don't get crazy."
I have to go in for the interview, and hopefully I get the job. I seriously need the work experience before hitting up colleges for an acceptance.
Speaking of college, I also got a letter from "Who's Who, The Registry of Academic Excellence" saying that I was nominated to have my biography published in a book. 'Free of charge.' If anyone knows more about this program or whatever you wanna call it, please please tell me about it, because now that I know I've been nominated by someone, I really need to get accepted.
All for now.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
First and foremost, I returned to Sword of the New World. And it's been going to pretty good I would say. Sarah and )|(onslaught)|( has welcomed me with open arms. I sold off my Vet Irawain and Fighter, but I still need to level my wizard to 4%, I already have someone lined up to buy her.
The thing is, I traded Vet Irawain for a +5/2DR ERM, when he was willing to offer 65m. I don't know if I really made such a terrible deal, but I needed the ERM.
Second, I've been rather off this week. I guess because all the emotions I've been feeling have finally taken a toll. The truth is, I'm actually pretty unhappy nowadays. A long time ago, I dated this guy. This was a long while back, and the truth is I don't think I'm over him yet. It's been a very long while, and the last time we talked, it was relatively hostile, and didn't end very well. But that was after we broke up. His name will remain nameless, I just wonder if he knows who he is, and if he has any courage to say anything to me. He dated a friend of mine, and they were relatively happy, but somewhere during that time, something changed the both of them. It's been a long time since all that, and as strong and courageous as I may be, I have no idea what to say to him.
Life is full of conundrums, and my heart is stricken with one.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Anyways, I need a clan, but hah. Check out this awesome proverb.
"I dream of a better tomorrow, where a chicken can cross a road and not have their motive questioned."
P.S. Price check on my Vet Grace, +5 70% Undead Conq. SG and yeah. :]
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Apparently he suffered from "Sudden Adult Death Syndrome" which is when you have a heart attack for no apparent reason at all even if you are healthy and fit. You would think cardiac arrhythmia would be for old people or people who eat pork brain with 3.5K mg of Cholesterol.
The game is not to blame, but however, what the hell. If you die from being healthy and you suffer from being obese/overweight, then I would rather suffer from obesity than diehealthy.
The world makes no sense anymore.
Watch the people who died, die again.
Monday, March 30, 2009
And in other news, apparently tommorow April 1st, 2009, a devastating internet attack will occur from a Internet Worm called "Conficker C." A lot of people say this is a controversy like Y2k. However, I believe that this thing could possibly be very very realistic. Y2k was just a conspiracy theory on the world ending because of an unnatural phenomenon. However, something like a worm that is activated to attack specifically on April 1st, cannot be an unnatural phenomenon. This worm can be very real, and is very dangerous. It will be used to stop traffic of major major sites that is used daily. This could include sites such as: Google, Yahoo, MySpace, Facebook, Youtube and so on and so forth. I suggest immediate updates on your Anti-Virus's immediately.
There were several articles on this worm, here is one of them:
P.S. Apparently, this worm hides in your computer until it's command to attack, so you may or may not know if your computer has this worm. Some have said that you know you have it when you absolutely cannot update your Anti-Viruses/go on any anti-virus download websites such as AVG or Norton.
Monday, March 23, 2009
My internet experiences began when I was the age of 13. This age was especially the greatest one that I laugh at, even to this day. This was my worse year of experiences that I could remember. My life has been like the Greek Gods, at 13 I was Aries, the god of violent and unnecessary warfare. I was a very erratic person at this age, talking crap about me constituted great war against you, and you best pray that I don't unleash my wrath upon you.
At 14, I began Rakion as a little noobie, played an archer and quit for a while. It was at this time that I started making some progress towards the higher level fighting, but it was a very on/off year of quietness. It became the most serene year of my life by far, although I was still Aries-like.
At 15, I broke into the realm of 31-99 on Rakion, playing with the high class levelers, meeting new people, and making both plenty of enemies and friends. This was the year that I hated myself the most, my life became dreadful, locked with constant betrayal and heartache. I made many enemies during this time of my life, I do remember those enemies, I hated them so much and wished to tear their heart from their bodies and rip their soul from their being. This year gave me such heartache, broken love, destroyed friendships, and constant warfare.
Now that I am currently 16, having done almost 365 day's worth of 256 events and new experiences. I've grown wiser, much more mature than my age is. It has been my greatest accomplishment yet. I've learned to forgive the betrayel and hate that my enemies bestowed upon me. And though such enemies are not all my friends, it does not matter to me if I become hated, or loved. If they hate me and wish harm to me, then so be it. But for great karmatic justice shall take place and uphold all sins placed by the people. I forgave many enemies, most of which became close friends of mine, some I love still, but it goes unidentified, and it is okay with me. I have become a martyr, and will sacrafice my happiness for the welfare, sake, and above all, the happiness of others, even if it means risking my own happiness.
In less than two months, I shall begin my 17th year of life, expecting 289 new experiences and new events. I figure this squaring of the age to provide new experiences is probrably wrong. And as the number of age increases, as well as it's square, the difference of squares between your old and new ages will be number that provides you with new experiences. Leaving you with 289 experiences and events that give you meaning that you have endured in your life.
In the end, love conquers all, my life has been full of hate and love, bountiful of both. Yet, I continue to strive on, with my head held up high. I've developed from Aries, the god of violent war, to Athena, the goddess of war done intelligently. But although love conquers all, there is and never will be, the true meaning and the true appearance of a war done intelligently.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
So after I came home, my friend IMs me this Wikipedia article and Facebook page of a girl who was murdered 20 years ago in 1989 in Japan by the name of Junko Furata. I don't know how many people know about this story, but her murder was never justified, and has been one of the most tragic and agony-filled stories that I have ever read. This murder almost makes Hitler's despicable acts during the Holocaust seem almost human. He at least killed the Jews, Gypsies etc. immediately, but this was not so for the fate of Junko Furata. She was kidnapped while going to work by four teenagers when she was 16 years old, forced to call her parents and forced to say she ran away from home and was safe. The four teenagers were +/- 1 year of age of that of Furata's. They did despicable things such as rape her 400 times in the 44 days of torment, agony and terror she suffered. One of the most disturbing things I read on a list of things they did to her, was that the teens stuck skewers of grilled chicken in her vagina and anus, and caused bleeding. I have no idea where they got this from, but I would never expect someone to think of doing something so evil. What pissed me off the most, was that her killers only got 8 years in prison because they were still juveniles even though they were tried as adults. Knowing that they will go to hell is not enough for me, I would personally destroy them myself. But they shall get what they deserve.
For more information about Junko Furata visit:
My heart goes out to the family of Junko Furata.
May your spirit wander until you rest in peace
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
So, today was when my crew found out that the international festival for our school is this Friday. And badly enough, we signed on to join and perform today.
I will be opening the show, with my solo of Toc Toc Toc by Hyori Lee. Since no one else wants to open the show, anyways, the girls are doing either Gee or Into the New World by SNSD. And the boys will end the show with Sunset Glow by Big Bang.
However in between are going to be a bunch of indian dances and other national music and cultural festivities.
Speaking of BigBang, after discovering that SeungRi from Big Bang has abs, I've TOTALLY fallen head over heels for him<3. Although I love him AND TaeYang, SeungRi is just too damn cute. (:.
I'm so moving to Korean and seducing him.
Friday, March 13, 2009
This weekend will be hectic. I have promotion board Saturday morning (please for the love of God that I do not mess up) and then I have an extra credit project to do for Global, which is 5 points on your total average, that'd bring my average to a 102. Freaking need please.
So now that I'm busier with school work, I have to make a newsletter / magazine with club, me being me I took the topics of forensic science and culinary arts. :] I'm cool like that.
And now I have to organize a bake sale for next week.
I'm making chocolate lollipops, probably in pink teddy bear, red hearts, and white/milk chocolate ice cubes decorated with sprinkles and whatnot.
I shall post a picture after I'm done making them<3
I leave my heart.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Was it wrong for me not to help this man up? Or would it have been wrong for unpredicted danger to overcome me, had I did help him.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
So in terms of school, chaos is it's true name, I have so many projects due this month, each week is going to be even harder until june arrives. Only 13 more weeks. BUT. On a lighter note, my dance group and I have finally perfected the dance AND vocals to Gee by Girl's Generation. It took probrably four weeks since we've been able to finally do it without complications, the dance and vocals were made for a girl group of 9 people, but we made it for 5, major win. So while the girls were working on Gee, the guys were doing their own thing. They still haven't perfect Big Bang's Haru Haru..but that's okay. :D. That song is hot so we'll just have to wait a little longer. So while we took breaks I was being a nerd and practicing Chun-Li moves, yes I have no life, but at least I can freakin' do them betch~. I sorta can do spinning bird kick, BUT however Chun-Li's is flying through the air without your arms supporting you, and well that's physically impossible to do to spin around mid-air. D: but atleast I can do some of it.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Street Fighter Alpha focused more on martial artist Ryu, with some Ken and Chun-Li. Ryu's "little brother" finds him after their mother's death. After his arrival, he begins to train with both Ryu and Ken, and ends up using the Haddo, which apparently Ken and Ryu should not use because of it's evil powers. The major thing that I was dissapoined about was how little Chun-Li action there was. D:. Come on, Chun-Li is so much cooler then Ryu and Ken, srsly. If it were humanly possible, I'd learn all of Chun-Li's moves just to show off. D:. There was one graphic scene, well it wasn't graphic, but it was dirty in my mind, that kinda freaked me out a little bit, and I wish to forget about it... but all in all, SF: Alpha was ehh.. I give it a 3/5, had it be more actiony with Chun-Li, then it'd be better.
Tekken the Motion Picture was epic fail. The story-line was okay, but the English dub was..terrible.. Kazuya's voice was so deep, it made no sense whatsoever at all. I mean, the entire storyline was about the main character's and their lives. But this revolved so much on Kazuya's revenge to kill his father, and then Jun is featured as an extraordinary martial artist. Are you friggin' kidding me. I'd rather watch the epic battles between Nina and Anna Williams, at least it's more action and less talking. I give it a 2/5, storyline was messed up, and it was..awkward to say the least..
So while I type up this crappy critique, I'm mediaconverting the Street Fighter II Animated Movie series, YouTube won't let me view it cause it's 'this video is unavailable to your country.'
Well it's available to me now, betch.~
Saturday, February 28, 2009
After nights of tedious searching, Hector and I found Requiem : Bloodymare. It's SO gory, so bloody and so beautiful. SADLY, I can't play it because I don't have a Nvidia GeFore / ATI Radeon on my laptop. And my computer is busted. SO ROAR.
I even ASK my technical geek-friends some questions about graphics cards, but as SOON as I get the start of an answer, I regret asking them a question, why? Cause they constantly talk about things I don't need to know about, the details that don't contribute to the answers. Jesus christ people, you all know me as straightforward, blunt and direct, just give me a simple yes or no, don't give me a whole complicated answer. Otherwise I'm going to start asking rhetorical questions, and just shut myself out of the misery.
I leave this song:
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
So first off, I changed my theme back to my original Rakion ninja which I do miss, and sadly has been destroyed by Softnyx and their corrupt Cruella de Vil type company.
Now what I'm looking for starting last night, is a new game that's interesting. I haven't really come accross anything that's catched my eye from the MMORPG.com game listing, but I shall keep trying. LordHector, his new girlfriend and I are going to be questing and kicking some ass together, if we ever find a game.
World of Warcraft
No P2ps actually!
Perfect World International
We've been considering Priston Tales (2), Corum Online and Shaiya. But oh well, must keep searching..
I leave myself and others this video.
Don't turn your back on them. Without them, we wouldn't be living in a safe environment. Show your support for them. Because this video, shows all truth in what we go through, and what they go through.
I haven't stopped watching, and I don't stop believing.
Fight hard, and fight to win.
To hang up my pistols, my rod, and my blades.
You have served me well, but it is time to leave indeed.
I've planned on joining Exalted these last few weeks, but the game has left me uninterested.
I've lost the will to continue playing, and to continue grinding to expert.
My family, you must collect dust until eternity, when I decide to finally resurrect you.
I bid you my last farewell.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
To be blunt, frank and completely honest. I left because I cannot stand the way I have been treated any longer. I am sick of being treated like second class dirt, by some people who I would have never expected such behavior and words from. And that has caused me to snap, and that was the last straw. I'm tired of needing to constantly show my dedication to a clan, that in return shows no respect for it's people back. I've given my leave much thought, and it is not because I want to leave. But I have been forced to resign and relieve myself of my duties in Telos. I once made a pact to myself, that if I immediately and repeatedly begin to be treated like trash, then I will immediately take leave. But that has been suspended on numerous occasions for Telos, and no more. I choose to honor my pact, before all others.
In the words of my freshman english teacher:
'You know when people don't give a damn of a rat's ass about you when they scrutinize and criticize that one mistake, that one error in judgement, above all your great deeds. If they fail to overlook your one mistake on the first try, then you know they only live to watch you fail, and when you succeed, they do not honor your success, but merely take control of it.'
Thursday, February 12, 2009
The thing which I want to apologize greatly for is my ignorance. My old clan leader from Rakion, Wai, has suffered great pain, from losing his grandfather a few years back, and is losing his grandmother as we speak. I've been so focused on my schoolwork, that I've ignored my good friends. I haven't spoken to him, and haven't had a chance to console him for his future loss. Such guilt and shame that I hold myself with for not doing so, has in turn made me cry, and die on the inside. So, Wai, if you ever read my blog, I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch. I love you, and always will, and will be there as much as I can, even though we've drifted so far apart. At times I wish life stayed the same as it did when we first met. Christine, Oscar, Kevin, and everyone else..we've all endured a great amount together, but we've drifted from each other..I still miss you guys..
On a less melancholy side-note, I've reinstalled Yahoo Messenger!, but it was only so that I could call my phone to see if my new ringtone worked... sadly calling from a computer is like 2.99/mo..
But, since then I've logged and stayed on Yahoo Messenger..and to what avail? I get a message while I was AFK from my psychotic ex-boyfriend. His name is Dominic, and he is Italian, he's like 24 now, and I'm 16. Such a pedophilic age for dating. But I've been told, my age, and my maturity do not coincide. So anyway, my ex-psychotic boyfriend talked to me. And instead of ignoring him and running I think I shall face him, and provide both of us with the closure we both properly deserve.
Until I fully recover and relieve my duties at school, we shall meet again.
Friday, January 30, 2009
However, realization cannot be achieved by one's own words, but by the result of the actions taken. When the time comes, those who deserve justified punishment, will receive much more.
And to our amazing leader, happy birthday Lourdes. From the hearts of Telos and I, we wish you a great birthday, and an awesome year. Let your happiness run through your veins, and let the bad suffer for what they have done. You are truly a beautiful pearl found inside an oyster.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
In the words of Voltaire: I do not agree with a word
you say, but I will defend to death your right to say it.
In the same essence, I will defend my friends to the passage of death, and forevermore honor their peace, and the respect they deserve. While the rest of Telos avoids facing their enemies, I choose to face them. I wonder now, if I am the only one who genuinely cares. Somewhere deep inside my heart, says yes. But I know everyone else cares, but am I the only one with the passion to show that I do? But the biggest question I have to answer is, will the vengeance I seek inevitably lead to my downfall, and will it ever cause me to leave Telos, because I will not be able to handle my wrath?
I leave in my hands yet again, the key to my fate. Will what I do destroy me..or will it save others.
Struck with Conundrums
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I'm from a suburb in Queens, New York. Also known as Flushing. I attend a high school in Fresh Meadows, Queens which shall remain nameless for my own safety, and I am enrolled in JROTC there.
I start my journey in the summer of '08. Sometime in the month of July, where I started downloading Sword to play for the second time in my life. I played the Open Beta version, and liked it, but I thought it was weird for me cause I didn't know where to explore after. I quit after OB for a while, and then the real game began and I had an urge to retry the uniqueness flavor of Sword, and so I did. And here I am now, after roughly 6 months, I've become a Veteran.
My adventures in sword began during OB, when I played with a few friends from Rakion, and we leveled together, but drifted apart inevitably. My original family name was Volencia, but then I forgot my account name for Sword..so here I am as Lunesca.
My clans used to be Save, No_NeeD, and now Telos, respectively.
Save was under Fiinch's command, he came back one week, and then he dissapeared and deleted Rakuru and I from his friend's lists. By the way, Rakuru is my connection to Telos, he's the reason why I was able to join Telos, so yay for Rak!. :3.
Then came No_NeeD, and Flurb was in it with me. However, the only thing I despised about No_NeeD was the lack of interesting conversation. Whatever conversation I had with them caused massive amounts of hate afterwards. Especially since Da1masca would always say that I'm PMSing. After the constant harassment of such a thing, I decided to leave. I said my 'F' yous and left, angrily.
Then a few weeks later, I came back and asked Rakuru if he could get someone to add me into Telos. Luckily this is where Warlust comes in and added me. :3. And loe and behold, my adventures with Telos, our bravest leader and most wisest leader, Misericordiia.
That's all for now.